It's been weird-the only word i could think of right now.I've been on the mountain or at least climbing higher-to the top.Dealing with individuals with arrogant immaturity and those who have maturity yet are possessing an issue dealing with control-letting go.No, it's not weird,it's frustrating.I'm not talking work-that's a given for me and that is what is to be expected-at least where I work.not home -things going quite well-I am blessed.But what set me back is things in dealing with people at church.i wish seasoned people that have accepted the mantle of authority would possess it in such a manner of fear and humility.But once again we're dealing with the human race-a species not yet perfected until Christ's return.God continues to remind me in an ominous way of how King Saul ended up in the OT.Pastors, Youth pastors and others should take note that what happened to Saul can be the very same fate shared if we choose to not humble ourselves and recognize what our calling from God is and what isn't and when the season of servitude has passed and it's time to pass it to someone else.I'm enraged because it deals with someone very close to me and it's unfair to see that person be blackballed.Where is the love?

New Approach...

I think assessing my life this week and assessing the things that encompass my life I need to change.Change sucks and it hurts alot.But it is necessary in order to adapt in being in this world.i find myself reminding me that -this is what you always do- Why?My whole relationship with God has cooled.I'm in the desert and i'm parched and not too far ahead of me is an oasis that God has for me but either Ihave become quite content and use to my surroundings or don't desire it at all and have given up...I'm tired of Churchianity,I'm tired of the church.Got to break through to get to the other side.It's like playing Medal of Honor at hard level.

So...

So I vented yesterday.Then God opened the heavens and poured out rain-so there i won't have to fret about stuff this week.Thank you God...

Ok now you can stop the rain...

finis...

I just completed my final exam for my speech class.I recieved a B-80%.That's good-especially for me.Now I have to complete my final persuasive speech on illegal music downloading.Thank you God.

Toys

I started reading The Pursuit of God by A.W. Tozer and the last chapter I read dealt with materialism.In that, in order to have a more intimate relationship with God we need to cut out things we hold on to that seperate us.Things we coddle and view as our "toys" if you will.We all have them and so do I. The thing for me is to let go of those toys that I have cherished so much and let them go -even if it means to violently remove them.Toys can become idols and thus remove the Lord off the throne and place themselves upon it by our hands.A very challenging task for me.

Things...

First,I cannot wait until school.One flipping class and already by spring break I am burned out.I plan on continuing in the fall so I'm hanging in there. Only four more to go with this one.A good friend passed on this week.He was one of those that you didn't have to know for years to get to like them,I've only hung out a couple times with him and his wife yet I know already he will be missed here on earth,Life can really suck sometimes...

Grapefruits

Alot,and I mean alot has transpired since I last blogged.Life,church-hey I went back to school.I could not not and I won't share it all in this post.My life is like a grapefruit in some respects.Once you peel it apart all of juice,if you're not creful will ooze out all over you or squirt you in the eye making it a unpleasant eating experience.So yeah here I am in March 2009.Cheers you all!